You know, the one where you are in school again and have no idea what’s going on. In the dream, I had to find my away around strange looking campus.
It was college again and it was the first day of class. I was thinking “Huh. I don’t remember signing up for this. Didn’t I already do this years ago?”
I was trying to figure out what my classes were, and where they were. What degree was I taking? Would there be math involved? And most importantly, did I still have my pants?
I got to my classroom but found it was a kindergarten room with those wee tiny chairs and the alphabet on the wall. I was wondering why I had been demoted all the way back to kindergarten when a bunch of people sat down at the other chairs.
It was everyone that I have ever had a tricky or unresolved relationship with. Every ex-partner, that college roommate who totally dicked me over and other people who have done me wrong when I felt too weak and insecure to set a boundary.
There were the people that I have avoided because I don’t know how to fix things between us.
There were a few unrequited, would be lovers and relationships that only happened in my mind, the objects of my projections.
And all the people who have been slighted, lied to and avoided by me. I was sweating in my dream, which now felt like a nightmare.
The teacher handed out a test and a bunch of crayons and said, “Welcome to your life. You are here to forget your divine nature and suffer from amnesia of all that you have learned in the past. These are your classmates, your fellow students. Your homework will be about learning to love and open your heart without hurting each other and to own all your own pain without projecting on each other. It’s going to take a while.”
At this point a few bright and shining people came in. “These people are your guides, your soulmates and your allies. They will be there to encourage you and help out, but they are not going to do it for you. It’s not possible to cheat or even get it wrong. It’s all research and you will stick with your classmates until you are totally clear and living in joy and love. And until you fully remember your divine nature.”
I saw a few beloveds, smiling and waving. Blowing kisses. Flipping me the peace sign.
At which point I woke up from my dream because my cat came in and sat on my chest the way she does when she wants breakfast. Nothing like a fluffy tail up your nose to break the dream cycle.
The dream has stayed with me all day, and I have had a funny sensation of not being able to tell if I am fully awake or asleep.
But really, that is the whole point, isn’t it?
