I found an old journal from 2009. I must have gotten it for Christmas that year, because it was filled with New Year’s desires and goals for 2010. It was sweet and sort of sad to read about what I was wanting to create back then.
The good news was that I have done all that I put on my list 100X over. I have succeeded and achieved way beyond what I was dreaming for myself back in 2009.
Life has changed in so many ways. My kids are now grown, the marriage that I was in back then is long over and my business has ramped beyond what I could even imagine back then.
If I could go back in time, I would tell myself to always dream bigger. It made me a little sad to read how small my dreams were back then. They are things I do now without even breaking a sweat.
And it made me wonder, am I still doing that? Dreaming too small? It’s always been the limits of what I thought possible for myself my own thinking that have held me back. As these illusions and limiting ideas fall away from me, I think- “I could have done that YEARS ago, if I had only thought I could!” There was no reason I couldn’t, except the thought never occurred to me.
What I am still withholding from myself because I can’t even see the possibility?
It’s an interesting question and one I will ponder and we step out of 2022 and into 2023.
Of course I am wondering what 2023 will hold for all us. I think we are off the edge of the known world into “Beyond here there be dragons…” region of the map.
The reality as we know it right now is so far beyond what my 2009 self could have imagined. I can see her looking into a crystal ball, seeing the NOW and shaking her head and saying- “excuse me, WHAT???” Haha!
And yet, so many thought leaders, light workers and bodhisattvas have incarnated onto this planet to be here right now- so that we can hold space for the deconstruction of the old as we are also poised to help re-recreate the world in a higher level of beauty, harmony and order.
Let’s hold each other’s hands and give comfort as things continue to fall apart. And also hold in our hearts and minds a higher vision of what we want to create in 2023 not only for ourselves, but also for the world.
