I feel like a different person all the time. You know how Facebook sends you those memories? I saw one today from seven years ago and I thought, “Who was that person?”
I know it must me be, clearly I was there! But I don’t really identify with that person, that version of me anymore. I feel almost like I am looking at someone else.
Here is my theory about why. When you are a person who is in the flow of your own soul’s work, it’s like jumping into a fast-moving river. I have to dog paddle pretty hard to keep my head above water in this flow. Deeply living in my life’s purpose means that I get to stay in my comfort zone for about five minutes before I am called onto to be the next version of me. I become the next version of me by stretching out of the comfort zone and by letting myself be pulled in to the coming change.
“The first book is done? Excellent, here is the huge and inspirational download for the second book and its Ah-mazing! Launching the first book? Good! Let’s do a road trip down the coast of California and do book signings on the way. The publisher will love that idea! (They do…) And now- new Reiki manuals, cuz you are teaching Reiki through the Rhys Thomas Institute this summer- huge win-win for all. Great! Now… GO!”
This is what it’s like for me all the time. And all those project sound soooo fun for me! I can’t wait to get started on them. Because it’s my soul’s work here, I have a joy and passion for the work. It’s still pretty hard work, but that juicy, joyful work where you spring out bed early on a Sunday morning and get right to it because it’s been percolating in your psyche all night.
And the human part of me has keep up, morphing all the time, stretching into that new me and also allowing the forward movement to create the new me. There are plenty of times that I trip up, fall down and blow it. There are times when I lose my balance and burn out. But mostly I feel the joy of the creative process, the deep satisfaction of creating my soul’s work here on Earth.
(Please don’t tell me I just work too much. I can’t adequately explain the joy I feel in this creation process. It’s so life giving, so fun, so completely satisfying. It’s not some external image or marker that I am striving for, it’s really about expressing with love what’s in my soul.)
And I am always feeling sort of fresh. I like each of the upgrades of me and feel nostalgic love for the old versions too.
